The Debilitating Disease of Sin

I'm sick. 

I rolled out of bed at 12:30 to take my temperature and see my 101.5° fever.

I hate being sick.

But like having insomnia, being sick also gives me more time to spend in the Word. I've been trying to go through the Pentateuch, and I'm currently in Numbers. In the passages that I read, I consistently see the pride and ungratefulness that the Israelites give God, and how awful it is to be in that place. 

In sickness, I realize that while I don't feel all that bad, it still affects me in that during this time, I can't make a lot of progress with my day because all I want to do is lie in bed. I also perceive outward stimuli with a skewed view in that it's currently 80° in my house, but I'm wearing a long sleeve shirt and sweats. And I can't go anywhere because I'm contagious. It's a frustrating process to be mired and confined by all of the proceeding reasons.

Then I realize the blessings of being sick. While I abhor being sick, I realize why he designed our bodies to respond to foreign stimuli in these ways. Sin and sickness affect different areas of your life, but they affect them identically. In sin, I can't make any progress with my growth in the Lord because I come to Him a prideful sinner trying to be with a holy God. I can't read my Bible with an open heart or give any kind of worship to Him because I'm still broken. I look at things around me with a distorted perception because I look at the world through the eyes of the law and punishment instead of love. Additionally, sin is contagious, and if I try to get others to partake in the same sin, I just feel worse. 

However, the light at the end of the tunnel is that if I take the medicine of calling on the Lord, I am healed and am able to see all of the ways in which he's saved me. When I'm in a sorry state, I realize how much I need Him and how weak I am on my own. You never know what you have until it's gone. Until you have a sore throat, you didn't know how blessed you are to have one that doesn't hurt. And with this corrected view, I better understand God's sovereignty and goodness.